My January 2011

In my cold and damp room I sat there thinking about the trilling year I had in 2010.

A lot of things changed, I like tea then I need my daily caffeine boost just to stay awake in the office, and now I’m here with a can of root beer.

I know it’s kinda late to talk about this but hey, let’s talk about my New Year resolution; don’t have one.

I’m still focusing on my last year resolution, to be more honest with myself, for all the people who let me down and use me in an unmentionable way, so brutal that it leaves a scar in my heart.

I’ve been telling myself to write an email to them and tell them how I feel, I didn’t do it.

I don’t know why, though I’m sure they don’t give a shit so why bother.

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The company that I work for is changing into a concentration camp, I gave my yearly financial statements report and just realized that the boss wants the company profitless. While we confront him he told us that it’s not our problem to think about the profit all we have to do is make more revenues. What do you think we are, a five year old?

He’s avoiding tax; smart. But a company without a heart and treat the employees like slaves; insane.
i think it's a lot more reasonable to use the profit in a form of a bonus or increasing the salary instead of buying expensive furniture (for his wife).

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I was chatting with my friend on facebook early on and told me that two of my friends are resigning, and he too is thinking about moving to a new place. I’ve been working here for more than two years now, the place sucks but the team is great. I couldn’t find any other place that I can easily come out as a gay person and they accept me with an open heart. They are more than a family.

I can still feel the goosebumps on my shoulder running through my arms.

I’m thinking about pursuing another career in Bali or moving back to Jakarta.

I love my friends

And now I’m scared